: heartbroken :

crawling out from under my covers after a recent rough patch. we lost our dog,Olive, a week ago and we still aren't getting over it yet. She had cancer and we put her through six chemo treatments. She appeared to be responding really well. She had no ill side effects and after a few treatments her tumor had shrunk about fifty percent. she was quickly back to her old self. 

Crazy, spastic, gregarious, humorous and our best friend! 

Fast forward about six weeks after her last chemo and she started showing signs her tumor was growing. She was less interested in eating and she was having some weird breathing issues. she could breathe, it was just off a bit here and there. 

We took her to the vet on a friday to get her checked out and while at the vet she had a very scary episode ( i will spare the details ) but let's just say it was not good. emotional and frantic. they had to rush her off to critical care unit at the hospital and we were in the waiting room for a couple of hours not knowing what was going on. When we did find out the details, there was no hope for her. She had massive fluid build up around her lungs, which the vet said was most likely cancerous fluid. 

The cancer had grown into her heart and was causing her heart to not work properly. It had to work extra hard just to keep going and it wasn't going to last much longer. We tried to bring her home for the night so she could be calm and relaxed and get a ton of love before we were to put her to sleep the next day. Once home, she collapsed and passed out from walking up our back porch steps. We moved her to the couch to rest but it was only getting worse. So we made a trip back to the vet, had a room to ourselves and said our goodbyes to her. our sweet olive.

 it has been just over a week and we are still struggling a bit to get our house feeling back like a home without her. she was such a force. she was love and she was funny. she was our family and we are missing every second of her.

*this was her last photo on her last day. brian is helping hold her steady*